Grabe, nakapagmuni-muni lang ako na Philippines is getting hopeless. I feel very sad for that and when I look around, I see poverty and lack of discipline. These days, medyo nagiging politically active ako -- nakikialam na ako sa mga nangyayari sa politics (don't worry, di ako sasama sa mga rallies). I figured, during Marcos' time di ganito (siyempre, that was during his time). Pero kung nagpatuloy siya sa pagiging president, who knows, maybe Philippines is one of the most competitive countries these days. Yes, he bacame a dictator. But I felt he did what's best for our country. If democracy had not stepped in, anti-Marcoses would say, "We could be like North Korea;" pro-Marcoses would say, "We could be like Singapore." But I say, "We could be the Philippines" -- distinct from other countries, having its own special identity. Today, masyadong lugmok na ang Pilipinas. I think even si Marcos mahihirapan. We need two Marcoses! joke lang  I'm not saying we should have one of his relatives as our ruler, but rather, someone like him.

Malas lang talaga si Marcos. Birthday niya pala 9/11, same with the terrorist attack in NY.  Something's fishy about that date. (Just kidding to the birthday celebrants of this date). Pero kung may kakilala kayong may birthday na ganito, pakimasid nga kung malas talaga siya.

Ang dami ko talagang natututunan sa What's Happening sa Teentalk. :D Interacting with other people is healthy! ;D

I'm a pro-Marcos because:
-yun na talaga yung nakalakhan ko
-I have roots from Leyte, the province of Imelda, so medyo may pagka-bias na ako dito kasi ang daming improvements ang nagawa dun (e.g. San Juanico Bridge, People's Center)
- He  established the kidney center, lung center, heart center, *insert organ here* center...
-He's so smart that he could  defend himself in court and win
-He drove Imelda crazy -- literally. He  assigned her to read ultra-thick books and make a summary / explanation about it for a short time. Siyempre, sumunod naman si Imelda, kaya muntikan na siyang matuluyan. He did this because Imelda is his wife. He wants a wife that could  also be called his better half.

My defense against the accusations:
-he's not the one who ordered to kill Ninoy. Neither did Imelda. When Imelda warned him not to go back to the Philippines, the Marcoses meant that in a good way (not a threatening manner). They were concerned about him because they already suspected that somebody have evil motives.
-possible suspects (based from collected sources): Ramos (it was all part of his plan to become president) or the CIA (they were afraid that if Marcos continued as the president, Philippines will overlay the US)

The bitter truth:
-Today, establishments/ projects done by Marcos, especially the ones that need improvements are ignored. "Just because" it was done by him. (e.g. Tacloban Airport, Asian Institute of Tourism -- college ko)
-Projects that are still used even up to now are snatched by other green-eyed politicians. (e.g. C-5, claimed by Ramos)
-GMA is often compared to him. Now, wtf, she doesn't even stand a chance to be compared with him.
-In school, students are brought up to hate him -- his dictatorship and martial law. I don't even remember discussing some of Marcos' good points during his reign (or hindi lang ako nakikinig nun).
-Bakit ayaw siyang ilibing sa Libingan ng mga Bayani? Why do people always focus on the bad side of things?


So, here's a challenge: Let it be one day that people will be prohibited to use the establishments/ projects started by Marcos para naman ma-appreciate natin siya kahit konti.


My apologies:
-I didn't experience his reign so maybe I'm the one who's in the wrong here.
-using bad words in my post (haha! pang emphasize lang yun ng feeling)


*I'm not anti to anyone. I'm just a pro-Marcos. So, the names I mentioned here doesn't necessarily mean that I'm attacking them. :D

^^ I got this from Multiply. :)
Kaninang hapon ay hindi masyadong magandang araw. It was a hassle for me find 7eleven near Metro Station. Nakapagtanong-tanong naman ako kaya medyo excused na yung part na yun. Nahanap ko ang bakery malapit sa 7eleven at may batang hinhingi ang iniinom kong coffeehouse (first time kong uminom nun). Paubos na kaya di ko binigay and nung narinig ko na sabi niya, kahit konti lang, wala na talagang laman yung iniinom ko. Grabe, kahit di pansinin, ayaw akong tigilan. Grrr.. Nung ubos na, nilagay ko muna sa bag ko. Then, Papa sent me a message saying na hindi niya na ako masusundo dun sa spot na yun at ako na lang pumunta sa office niya. Pagkaupo ko dun (di kasi pwedeng pumasok ang non-employees unless sinabihan ang guard) malapit sa guardhouse/ gate, natapon yung "ubos" ng coffehouse. Karma ba yun? Paubos na kasi kaya hindi ko nga binigay yun eh. Bat ganun? And nilagay ko siya sa bag kasi ayoko magtapon ng basura kung saan-saan. Next, may dumaan na "happy" na magkakaibigan. Happy -- nagkakatuwaan sila. Dumaan sila from across the street and one of them called me, "Ate, hinihintay mo 'to?" (while pointing at her friend). I was combing my hair at that time and I just stared at them. I don't care and I don't know how to react so deadma lang. Akala tuloy niya, nagalit ako. Di naman. Kebs lang. (Kebs/Keber--new word learned this week-- means "walang pakialam")

>>Oh yeah, Hannah from PE 2-Social Dance taught me that word. Speaking of which, I got a low grade from our waltz exam. Haay, nag-enjoy pa naman ako. Tawa nga ako ng tawa eh. :( I have to do better next time.

>>May palpak na naman ako sa AIT library. Buti understanding ang mga tao dun. May ni-reserve kasi akong book kaso sabi dun sa slip, 4:30pm ko pa makukuha. I got there 4pm. Umupo muna ako and waited. Then, ang sabi, bat di daw ako kumibo. "4:30 po yung nakalagay eh." Kahit na raw. Dapat daw sinasabi ko pagpasok ko. Tama nga naman.
Another mistake: umalis ako without letting the staff check the book. Nahiram ko na kasi yung libro na yun kaya akala ko di na titingnan. Buti nga, understanding talaga dun. Pinagsabihan ako. :)

Balik tayo kanina. Papa told me na ang tagal ko daw kaya hindi niya ako nasundo dun sa spot. Naabutan tuloy siya ng boss niya at may pinagawa sa kanya. Kasalanan ko? Siguro? Pero that time, I was really having a bad day kaya I was expecting an apology. Now that I think about it, I don't deserve that apology. Oh no, I'm becoming like them! You see, majority in my family blame one another when something goes wrong. Aaargh! I don't want to become like that.

>>There was a time that we have to fetch Auntie Vren but we didn't make it due to the heavy traffic. Di nakaabot yung dapat na ipapadala namin. Heavy talaga nung traffic and you know what? Mama blamed me. She even questioned how I take a bath. She even instructed me how it's supposed! What's the relation, diba? The fact na umalis lang kami nung nagtext si auntie nung paalis na siya. Was that my fault? Anong kinalaman nung kung paano ako maligo?!

Isa pang palpak ngayong araw. I got my new BPI Express Cash card. Nasabi ko na wala ng laman yung luma. Meron pa pala. Di ko din alam kung paano i-register yung pin nung bago. I kept saying, "Sige po. Tatanungin ko po."

Plain stupidity.

COMPATIBILITY


Let's take the FIRE signs (e.g. Aries) as an example. (All conditions apply to the other signs)

• All FIRE signs are compatible with each other. It means that Aries is most compatible with Leo and Sagittarius.
• However, Aries-Aries compatibility may vary.
• The opposite sign of Aries is Libra (air sign), but it doesn't mean that it is incompatible. Again, Aries-Libra compatibility may vary.
• The fire and air signs belong to the POSITIVE pole. Positive signs (fire and air) are generally harmonious with each other but still, it may vary.

INCOMPATIBILITY

 

• Libra is the opposite of Aries. The two signs near Libra are Virgo and Scorpio. Virgo and Scorpio are least compatible with Aries.
• The positive (fire and air) and negative (earth and water) poles are not really harmonious with each other.
  
  If there is a ranking for the Aries compatibility, it should be like this:
• Leo, Sagittarius (EXCELLENT)
• Aries, Gemini, Libra, Aquarius (GOOD)
• Taurus, Cancer, Capricorn, Pisces (SO-SO)
• Virgo, Scorpio (NOT THAT GOOD)

Confused? I have a feeling this isn't really reader-friendly. Just ask me if you want to know the "ranking compatibility" of your sign.


Disclaimer: All things posted in this entry are according to the author's understanding of the said topic. Please don't sue (or bash) me. :)

My first time:

1. To go to SM North - Yesterday, after my validation for my classes, with Honeylet.
2. Using Laking National Card - Yesterday, at SM North, bought two notebooks and a gift wrapper, added by Honeylet's notebook.
3. Riding MRT from North Avenue - Yesterday
4. To see MODELS! - Yesterday, at MRT, still wearing make-up, looks like fresh from a show, talking about their walk and their pics.


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Ngayon ko lang na-appreciate ang systemone sa uplb. As in. Kaya be thankful na ganyan ang systemone (natin).

Bakit ganun, ma-aapreciate mo lang ang isang bagay pag wala na or may comparison na?


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Kahapon, balak ko sana mag-prerog sa isang subject in a way na magmamakaawa ako sa prof. Kaso nag out-of-town pala siya. Buti na lang kasama ko si Honeylet nun at nagbigay ng second voice tungkol sa subject na ita-take ko. Thankfully, ngayon, ENROLLED na ako. Yehey!

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Buti na lang cinancel ko PE ko kahit gusto ko ng Mahjong (hehehe... you're not a Japzon if you don't know how to play this... in other words, it's a family clan-must). Terror daw kasi ang prof. At buti na lang, napalitan ko ito agad ng Social Dance! Parang ballroom din daw ito pero medyo nag-aalala ako kasi wala akong dancing background and emphasis on my two left feet. Anyway, I took this kasi gusto ko talaga matuto. What's the use in learning something you've already learned? Gusto ko laging may "bago".

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I'm celebrating dahil na-move ang classes next week. Seriously, wala pa ako ganang pumasok. Isipin mo, papasok ka, hindi ka pa-enroll and may problems ka pa sa mga subjects mo? Dapat kasi may pasok kami this week with the extension of enlistment and payment. Buti na lang talaga na-move ang klase.

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I want to make a Cuddles or Homer bookmark out of beads or sequins? Wala lang. Kaso malapit na pasukan eh. That reminds me... my star. T_T Gumawa kasi ako ng keychain(?) na star out of beads. Nilagay ko sa payong ko and ayun, nawala. Nahulog ata somewhere. T_T
Cuddles, Homer and stars have the same color. But I never saw Yellow as my favorite color. Siguro pang accentuate lang.

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Medyo natatakot na ako sa pasukan. Dilima kasi. Parang heavy ang pressure. Yikes!

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I'm craving for a McDo Caramel Sundae. And something to eat. What's happening to me? I ate two "candies" of Astringosol. Papa said na pang-sore throat lang yun. Kahit na. They look like candies, so I ate some. Now, it looks like I'm habing a sore throat. Bumaliktad ang efect? Pwede pala yun? Grrrr...

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Conversing with my cousin was fun that I want to visit him in his dorm at UST. At the same time, meet-up with Gigi, to see how things have been.


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I just explored the TOKI route. Harhar! It really is the opposite of IKOT route. :P


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I am now thinking of new looks for my accounts.

SPOILER ALERT
SPOILER ALERT
SPOILER ALERT

 

This post is dedicated to the characters of Code Geass R2. X3

( I warned you :) )
Lesson learned: You become strong when you fight for something. :D

UP Diliman, here I come!

Ok, I got in!
My course now is BS Tourism.

Sa totoo lang, takot talaga ako sa Diliman. And sa AIT (Asian Institute of Tourism). Parang kasi ang strict ng mga tao dun. Ewan ko lang. I guess I'll find out.

Ang dami ko ng nakilalang mga co-transferees from UP elbi and UP Baguio. Some of them I met during interviews and some I met during registration/ clearance procedures. Hindi ko tanda names nila and I'm sure na di rin nila ako kilala pero I know na nagkakamukhaan kami.

Last Friday, *checks calendar* May 22, I went to UP Diliman to look at my results. I went to AIT first kasi yun ang pinakamalayo. I was kinda feeling down because of what happened at the interview but I l checked it anyway. There is still a tiny hope left in me. When I got there, the "smiling caretaker" said, "Ang aga mo naman ngayon." I think namumukhaan niya ako from my first time alone in AIT. That time, he greeted me with a good morning and a smile. I greeted him back, and also smiled. :)

I entered the institute and told the guard that I'll be checking the results for the accepted applicants. And there it is. My name on the tenth spot (it's alphabetized). I can't believe it at first; I stared at my name for 5 minutes. I'm very happy. I read the procedures to follow and it will start at 9am. It's still 8am so I decided to go back to UP (AIT is outside of UP) and check the results for the other courses I applied.

I went at Palma Hall and looked at the results. I thought I didn't make it because I didn't received a phone call. Then, there's my name. I'm so happy but I'd be even happier if that was for BS Psych. Moving on, I met Klark, Dianne and Leah there. While they are waiting to start on their procedures, I went to FC (Faculty Center) to check on my European Languages result. To my surprise, I didn't make it. They say CAL (College of Arts and Letters) are very strict when it comes to accepting applicants. However, that didn't bother me anymore since I was really happy for my Tourism result.

Honeylet and I were supposed to meet. But, she texted me na kagigising pa lang niya and I was already at Palma Hall waiting for her! I waited for more minutes but I asked her if she will be going to elbi after our meeting. She said no and mauna na ako. So, I went to AIT, got my referral slip and went  to elbi.

Actually, I don't how to go to elbi from Diliman. Buti na lang, Dianne taught me and before leaving AIT, I asked the guard if I can ride a vehicle on that super scary road. He told me there's no need to take a jeep, just take the bus to Cubao. Buti, tinetext at kinakamusta ako ni Dianne. Nakarating naman ako sa HM liner and kinausap ako ng katabi ko.

He's working at Ninoy Aquino Wildlife Park. Ayun, nagkwentuhan kami. He's on his way to Monte Vista and he doesn't know where it's specifically located. Actually. this is the second time this kind of situation happened to me. Ang kakwentuhan ko naman nun, babae, and she was looking for a certain resort na malapit sa Monte Vista. Ayun, nagkwentuhan din kami. XD Anyway, the man thanked me for our conversation kasi hindi siya nainip and the woman(yung dati) also gave me a tap because I helped her look for the resort.

Pagpunta ko sa elbi, nakita ko si Prince. Naalala ko tuloy si Martin. XD Anyway, I went on with my procedure. Boy, it was tiring! Magpapapirma kami ng clearance from the different institutes, departments and offices. May mga nagagalit samin kasi lilipat kami. They say ginagawa naming "stepping stone" ang elbi. (Di naman eh, but that made me think... did I?) Grabe, haggard. Solo flight lang ako nung araw na yon. Buti na lang yung ibang institutes, mababait. Di na nagagalit. *sending them smiles*

Nauna kami nina Dianne, Klark, Leah at ako. Pero nahuli ako sa pagpapa-sign sa DSS. Yun na daw i-last ko sabi ni Tita Aying (yung mabait na assisstant dun:)). Yung kasama kong tatlo, pinagalitan ng Dept. Head. Ako, di na ako nakaabot. So, I have to return next week. Ang balak ko nga Monday ako pupunta. Buti na lang, sinabi ko kay Ate Tessa (yung tumulong samin ni Ginelle nung NF kami) yung plan ko. Sabi niya wala daw office sa Monday. Sa Tuesday na lang daw, agahan ko. Thanks, Ate Tessa!

TUESDAY:
My plan is to complete and get it done with elbi then head straight to Diliman. Papa accompanied me. Grabe, super aga kong dumating dun. Naghintay ako ng ilang hours sa DSS and when I got there, nakita ko ang mga mahal kong Sociomates. Then, iinterviewhin na ako ni Mam Saniano. Ayaw ko talaga ng interviews. Actually, di ko masyadong nasagot ang tanong niya (1-Why do you want to transfer; 2-Convince us that you did not use us) pero pinirmahan pa din niya. Ang bait talaga ni Mam. Kaso super sama ng loob niya. She says na I deprived someone else of a slot who is willing to take Socio as his course. Nung nagpapirma na ako sa College Sec, grabe ang bigat ng feeling ko habang naghihintay. Sabi ni Papa, kinonsensya daw kami. Nakokonsensya ba ako? Di ko alam. On the first place, pinili ko talaga ang Socio kasi may relation siya sa Psych. And I didn't know na super baba ang cut-off grade ng Socio. Ang sad lang kasi they thought we used them. I keep on convincing myself na hindi ko ginamit ang Socio, although I'm not sure about that. Ang alam ko talaga hindi kaso may "something" na feeling. 

After College Sec, I have to wait few more hours to get it. Naglunch kami ni papa sa Chowking (nagbfast nga pala kami sa Mcdo habang hinhintay yung sa DSS). Dun sa Chowking, may nanglilimos na bingi. Taga-Leyte yung nakasulat dun. Napagtripan ni Papa, sabi niya isulat ko dun sa papel "from V&G Tacloban City" --yun kasi yung bahay nila Papa sa Tacloban, Leyte. Binigyan naman ni Papa tapos sabi ko, Pa sana winaray niyo. "Bingi nga eh." Then, he muted his voice and mouthing/ gesturing: "Parang ikaw". XD Habang kumakain kami, may nakita ako sa labas, CSA PE shirt. Sabi ni Papa baga freshman. Sabi ko naman proud Augustinian siya. XP

When I got my papers from the College sec, I have to go to the Admin. Mabait naman yung nag-asikaso.

Lastly, dun na ako sa OUR. May issue nga eh. Yung pipirma daw nasa Singapore. 1 wk pa daw namin makukuha. Si Klark, all the way from Pangasinan, ay nag-aalala na kasi nga wth?! wala bang OIC? Buti na lang na-asikaso. Yung balak kong pumunta sa Diliman on that same day, nasira. Sabi ni Papa kaya daw niya ako sinamahan para di na ako mahirapan sumakay from elbi to Diliman.. eh, wala rin. Anyway, nakabili si Papa ng maraming Chocomilk. Dalawang 1000 ml, apat na 500 ml, at dalawang 200 ml. Meron ding apat na milk-o-jel. Buti na lang pinaiwan namin dun sa PCCI (Philippine Carabao Center Institute) kasi magtatagal kami.

Bumili na din kami ng Buko Pie at Aviles Bulalo on the way. At sinundo si Mama.

WEDNESDAY
UP Diliman. Naghanap ako ng xerox machine. Pabalik-balik ako sa FC at AS. Kailangan ko kasing i-photocopy yung mga papers na isa-submit ko. For back-up. Kumain muna ako sa Katag pamapalipas oras. Bumalik-balik ako sa dalawang building, wala pa din. Pumunta na lang akong OUR kahit wala pang xerox. Then, on my way there, nakita ko yung NISMED. Tinanong ko kung may photocopy sila. Yay! Buti na lang meron. Pumunta na akong OUR and nag-submit ng papers. Kaso, may kailangan pa palang i-fill-up. Buti, habang naghihintay, may nakausap naman akong taga- up baguio and few felbizens. Kinausap ko, then, nagtanungan kami kung panu kunin yung admission slip. Grabe, I feel that they helped me a lot. Lalo na si Meryl(?). Encouraging kasi yung words/aura niya. Tinuturuan nila ako kung ano pang kailangan kong gawin. :D *sending them hugs* After that, may kulang pa akong paper. Pero pwede namang i-follow-up. I waited for a few minutes and yay! I got my University Admission slip.

I went to CRS after that. Computer center pala. Akala ko lugar ang CRS. hehehe. On my way there, a friend of Klark who knows me by face (and vice versa) asked me how to get to OUR. I presented her the map Ate gave me. Ewan ko lang kung maganda yung pag-explain ko. Sana pala mas detailed yung info na sinabi ko. Tinuro-turo ko lang kasi, "Ayan, yan diba. Tapos eto.. Ayun. eto na yung OUR." I'm so lousy.
I rode a jeep papuntang Katipunan. Akala ko dumadaan yung sa routa ng Ikot jeep. Then, nakita ko, papalabas na. bumaba na ako. I found my way and another yay! I have my UP Webmail account. :D

During that time, Ate was texting me if we should go house-hunting on that day. Sabi ko patapos na ako, I just need to ask something from AIT.

Pagpunta ko sa AIT, nakilala ako nung guard. *sending him smiles* After that, sakto, asa UP na si Ate. Sa church daw kami magkikita. Ang laki pala nung Church in a way na di ko alam kung san hahanapin si Ate. I sent her a message and was trying to call her. Yun pala, nagsimba siya. After the mass, we went house-hunting! We were trying to find the "Pink House" kaso di namin nakita. Although, may nakita kaming pink house na maganda pero puno na. Then, 3 yung nakita namin bahay. Ang gusto namin yung sa Pagador. Dun dati sina Ate Mapee at Ate Jericah (friends ni Ate). Dun na din yung kapatid ni Ate Jericah. Yun na dapat yung kukunin namin.

After that, pumunta kaming LB (Lutong Bahay). Kumain kami for lunch and naalala ko ang FC sa elbi. May fruitshake din dun. Bago kami umalis, may nag-request samin na iinterviewhin kami for UNTV. Yikes! Kinakabahan ako. On film pa siya. Ok naman interview ni Ate: pwede niya nang i-endorse yung LB. Akala ko, makakatakas na ako. Pati ako, ininterview. T_T Sabi ni Ate, I did well. But I'm not convinced. I really hate interviews! T_T

Since malapit lang ang Area 2 sa Kalay (Kalayaan Residence Hall), tiningnan namin kung pwede pang mag-submit ng dorm application. (Yung OSH-Office of Student Housing kasi nasa Kalay). Marami pa palang isa-submit. Kailangan ko pang bumalik dun.

Pagkatapos nun, pumunta kaming UST to get Renzy's uniform. Fortunately, may pera kami. Grabe, kapagod. Pero, at least, natatandaan ko na kung pano pumunta sa UST at La Salle (See you, Geom & Gi!).

Sumabay kami kay Papa, pauwi. At natuto ako sa kung anong meron sa upuan ng Innova. XD

Nasa house na kami and I forgot to tell Mama that I need her ITR (Income Tax Return). Pinagalitan niya ako kasi di ko sinabi agad. Sabi ko pwede naman akong bumalik sa Friday kasi di naman yung first come-first serve. Ayaw niya makinig. Gusto niya pumunta agad ako kinabukasan. So, naiiyak na ako that night kasi ayaw niya makinig, tapos pinipilit pa niya ako.

THURSDAY
That morning, sinumpong siya. All plans, totally ruined.

That night, yung house na gusto namin ay reserved na pala. Mama blamed us. Lahat naman ng tao ganun eh. When something goes wrong, blame it on someone else. I wonder how it helps them. They should listen to Yano's way of thinking (referring to Bokura Ga Ita XP).

FRIDAY
Pumunta na akong UP Diliman, submitted the papers I need to submit and went house-hunting all by myself. har har. I know I can do it, I just don't encourage myself.

Kaya naman kasi di ako kumikilos kasi sanay na ako. Sanay na akong pinapakielaman desisyon ko. Heck, I don't even know what to say when people ask about myself. I just follow, obey and breathe.

I'm so pissed whenever I'm at home so I promise this: I'LL NEVER RETURN HOME UNLESS I NEED SOMETHING WHEN I ALREADY HAVE A PLACE TO STAY AWAY.

Hmm!

It's not that I love elbi, it's just that I'm scared of diliman. So, whatever happens to the results, I will accept it.
If I pass, good. If not, also good. I try not to assume (because it makes an ASS out of U and ME) and to think of the present (though I must peek at the future at times).

What's up: SystemOne -- I really like this online reg. It's like a logic game wherein you have to choose carefully what will be your schedule, at the same time, cross your fingers that you'll end up with a nice prof.

What's next: Results -- I'm going to see the results next friday. I hope it's already posted. I want to go to diliman personally because I'm afraid of what I'll say over the phone.

Coming soon: College life -- elbi or diliman, still, it's college. I want to graduate as a 'laude' with the course that I really want (and hopefully, love). This 'laude' only came to me when my sister was admitted to PKP (Phi Kappa Pi, I think). It's like an honor society wherein they invite the top 20% of the students(?). First, I just want to get a good grade. Now my aim is to also go on the same stage.

Dream big: Honors -- Surely, if I want to be admitted to that society, why not make it big? That's why I'll be aiming for a 'laude' when I graduate (summa cum laude! harharharha--*chokes*).

elbi forever?

It looks like I'll not be going to Diliman. I flunked my interviews.

Half-relieved, half-disappointed.

Happy or sad? Definitely sad. I let my family down. I'm so useless, I don't know what to do with my life.

Sana pala nag-engineering na lang ako from the first place. I can't stand this "socializing to get a job"*.

You must have good communication skills in order to survive. I suck at that. I admit that I have no common sense, no initiative; I just rely "by the book" and only act when told to. I'm obedient because I don't know what to do. I fulfill their dreams because I don't think my dreams are really worth it. I'm giving my life to them. I appreciate the support but I just really suck. Period.

Kaya pala humagulgol ako kagabi; because I'll be having a bad day today. If I didn't do that, baka habang kumakain ng lunch after ng interview ay umiiyak na ako.


I'm so stupid. I don't know what else to do. Since when did I start to be a dead fish swimming with the current?


Mag-madre na lang kaya ako? XD



*Don't get me wrong. I love socializing and expanding my network. In fact, I just made 3-5 acquaintances today (don't know their names though XD). What I don't like about it is using it to achieve something like a job/ position. :(